Dear Motivation, where have you been?

Dear Motivation, where have you been?

Over the last 15 years, I’ve struggled to find peace within myself, and find that inner balance where I can once again feel motivated by life, and my health. So far, 2013 has been a good year in regards to exercise. This whole finding peace isn’t as easy as you may think, but I am motivated to move forward.

Exercise and motivation – Color Run, walking and jump rope

I walk a min of 40 minutes a day 5 days a week, and tomorrow I will start my ‘Couch to 5K” training on top of my daily walking 3 times a week. My goal this year is to participate in the Color Run. The Color Run is on September 7^th of this year at Portland International Raceway, and is a 5K. I chose this run because there was no segregation of skill level.  I have a lot of excuses when it comes to exercise, and I own my short comings, however; I’m determined to do this run.  http://thecolorrun.com/portland/

This evening I plan on starting my jump rope challenge. I will start out with a goal of jump roping to three songs, gradually increasing a song weekly. I am doing this in order to tone my arms and strengthen my core. I will be doing this opposite the days I am training for The Color Run. I will also continue to keep walking.

My health

My health is a big concern for me right now, and I am trying to stay positive but it is hard when you become sick for no apparent reason, and that sickness seems to last for a few days. I feel as though I am at war with food, and I am losing.

This past week was a good week because I didn’t get ill from eating something my body decided it didn’t want to process. I’ve excluded dairy from my diet, and learned I have some possible allergies to certain types of dairy which will be explored at a later time. Right now, I am not eating Gluten.  Gluten seems to be A culprit and it helps that Robin is also Gluten free so eating doesn’t have to be so convoluted.  

Food has become a challenge for me…what do I eat? I think I have a bad Gallbladder, but explaining to doctors what my body is doing isn’t all that simple.  I want the Gallbladder out, but I am also scared that it may not be my direct issue. There is a lot of uncertainty at this point.

Injuries

My right ankle isn’t a big supporter of getting in to shape. I had physical therapy for a year, and avoided surgery, however; after a week of pumped up activity it aches me.  This makes me sad because if I am not careful, there will be no Color Run…jump rope and walking for me.

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All I know for certain is, I am more motivated now than I have ever been and I just wish the rest of me was on board. I just want to be healthy and lose some weight. I should be losing weight and I am not and it’s really frustrating.

So, I will continue to truck a long..wishing for a more healthy body, mind and spirit. I am hoping I can meet my challenges head on and come out on top.